Monday, February 21, 2005

Job

Well my job has become a job, it's no longer something I like doing. I dread waking up in the morning to go to it. For the first time since I started working there I called in to say I was going to be late for no reason other than I didn't want to go in. I don't know what happened. One day I was going along with my life enjoying it. Loving my job and loving were I was at. Then all the sudden, disgust. Unhappy with everything. It seems as though I'm in a state of depression. I'm not happy with anything I do. I'm sick of work, I haven't done anything at work in weeks. My paper work is a month behind. The place is a mess. And you know what I don't really care. Well not enough to do anything about it. Maybe I don't care because I won't be there too much longer. Well for that matter I don't know if there will be a NAPA in Mandeville that much longer. Another store is opening up down the road, and I'm convinced when they open up that we will be shutting down shortly after that. Not trying to be pessimistic but there is just not enough business to support four stores plus two more driving from Covington taking business. I don't know where this is going, other than to let you know that if you think I'm acting weird lately. I probably am. I've never been one that didn't like spending time by myself, but never too much time. I usually would want to do something. I haven't wanted to do anything in a couple weeks. I'm strongly considering becoming a recluse again. Moving to like Arkansas in the woods and just sitting there in a rocking chair with chew in my mouth, aiming for the spitton. I hope your liking your life better than I'm liking mine. Peace.

15 Comments:

At 20:59, Blogger Super Dave said...

Sucks that things are going so bad for you, friend. Can't say that mine's going much better. :-/ Ah well, at least I get to look forward to coming home for spring break in about 2.5 weeks. This is the first time in a few years that i'm not going to have to work for half my spring break. So that means we'll get to hang for ten days straight!

 
At 05:29, Blogger BigSexy said...

I def. look forward to it my friend. Still no picture huh. While signed in click your name above a comment then to the top left there should be a button that says edit profile. Then look around and add a picture, it will need to be on a photo online not on your hard drive.

 
At 05:31, Blogger BigSexy said...

OH yeah one other thing, My post always get more comments than yours. In ya face!!!!I'm Rich Beyotch!!!

 
At 09:24, Anonymous loverboy said...

hey buddy i might be joining you in Arkansas cause i am about to fail my history test, strangle my poetry teacher and spill chemicals all over my stupid Lab T.A. .. i don't know if i could share the chew with you though... Mom would kill me (i bet she is going to read this too)... i will whittle and eat seeds and you can chew and rock back and forth...
I'll pray for you bud...

Loverboy

 
At 09:25, Blogger Gina Marie said...

i know exactly how you feel! i hate my job but I am going to be there until i graduate then i plan on leaving in a blaze of glory!! (yeah right but it feels nice to type it)

 
At 11:02, Blogger Super Dave said...

I got a picture for ya' Chad! Haha, it's a C-E-L-E-B-R-A-T-I-O-N! What did the five fingers say to the face...Slap!!!

 
At 12:12, Blogger NicoleMarshall said...

Well, can't say I haven't noticed :) But we all love you anyway and understand that stuff just gets crappy sometimes. One thing I've learned is that if you find yourself in a patch of trees, you've gotta climb out of the car, fall to the ground and then crawl across the median :) All that to say, you have to make a change. Something big, no matter what it is, I will support you my friend :) I've been exactly where you're at many times before, but I always refused to stay there long. Never let pecimism(sp?) override your real love and zest for life. And if you don't have a deep down love for life, well then its time to start talking to your Maker :) We are all here for you unconditionally; you will always have that. But I will never be satisfied with your being unsatisfied for more than a season in life. Friends love you for who you are, but love you too much to let you stay where you're at. Sorry if that seems cheezy, but it is the absolute truth. I have let you sit in this depression for a while and will continue to do so, but just know that when I get frustrated with you, it's not because I don't understand how you feel. It is quite the contrary. I understand, but I also understand that you are capable of so much more. So make it happen big guy! Everyone here has your back.... that is so much more than most people out there have! Good Luck.... and show us what you're made of :)

 
At 14:08, Blogger Super Dave said...

Goodness pteradactyle, you need to comment on here more often. Most of the time, I can hardly get more than just a few people to post or comment on our blog for even just a sentence or two. You come on here and give us a thesis, chalk full of life lessons. Good stuff and keep it up. Though, next time you type something really long, do it on something I post, instead of one of Chad's, and especially one of Neo's. ;-) By the way, that's hot! Love ya!

 
At 14:11, Blogger Super Dave said...

"bigsexy said...

OH yeah one other thing, My post always get more comments than yours. In ya face!!!!I'm Rich Beyotch!!!"

Not for long sucka'. My girl Nikki is gonna' come through for me. I have the faith.

 
At 16:44, Blogger BigSexy said...

Thanks for the support guys. I think I'll stay depressed at least another week, then I'm getting happy again.

 
At 20:21, Blogger Neo said...

"Never let pecimism(sp?) override..."
Never let yourself look stupid for no reason when dictionary.com is a click away ;)

 
At 20:45, Blogger BigSexy said...

Or if your using firefox at the top right hand corner ;)

 
At 21:23, Blogger Neo said...

well said my newly converted linux friend... pansies

 
At 21:27, Blogger NicoleMarshall said...

Glad to know I can always rely on your support josh.

 
At 10:21, Blogger T.Rock said...

hey bigsexy,

you know i've been there. you know superdave and his brother are dealing too. the worst part of depression is that you don't like sharing it with someone. try more than you already have and see if your results get better. i love you and pray for you.

you can move here to madagascar if you want. it has a great view of lisbon.

 

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